Sometimes I just want to step back to when being grubby was part of a good day. When my biggest hero was my big bother. When my little sister was a cute little pest.

Sometimes I don’t want to be bombarded with retirement saving commercials, with every drug imaginable that you need to ask your doctor for commercials, with do your taxes commercials, with a home for your aging parents commercials.

Sometimes I just want to step back to playing outside when building forts was more important and empowering than replacing hot water tanks and fighting with leaking plumbing.

Sometimes I don’t want to surf job sites and apply for new jobs and go through the anxiety and stress of change, and sometimes I don’t want to think about retirement.

Sometimes I just want to step back.

And sometimes I know that being in the now is ok. That my biggest hero is still my big brother, my little sister is still a cute little pest.  To turn off the TV, breathe and enjoy the excitement of new opportunity and go outside and play. Take Jasmine for a walk around the neighbourhood and talk to the donkeys.

Sometimes….